Kingdom Minded

Today I was just thinking…do we take credit away from God when we say things in our life are just coincidences? Do we make everything mundane by saying it’s an accident we ended up here & not see how God lead us here?

It’s easy to think a few random steps or missteps got us to where we are. But maybe we should instead see God’s providence in things.

Just a thought. Blaming things on coincidences may be a way of taking God out of the equation.

Remember His plan & always give Him glory.

I’m sitting here miserable because I’m so sick. My head is pounding & I’m shaking I am so cold. All I was thinking was how much I wished I could go home.

But, then I remembered. I am so blessed to be where I am.

This summer there was a little boy at the children’s home in Kenya I worked at. Musyna, that’s his name, would spend days curled in a ball outside hoping just to soak up some sun while he wished we could play with the other kids. He would spend days like this. As hard as he wished, no family would come & take him home. There was no relief for this poor AIDS-stricken 7-year-old.

One day we took two children to the clinic. Mumbaa had to be carried there because he was so sick. While we sat there waiting for his medicine, he hesitantly put his aching head on my arm. I let him lay on my lap & I have never felt so much relief from a person. Too sick to walk, we carried him home with his malaria medicine.

These kids had no family to go to in their times of sickness. They could find no relief. They had little water & none of it was clean.

I am so blessed. Even at my sickest moment in the middle of Wisconsin I can drive to the doctor & get medicine & be better within the week. My family is a phone call away.

These kids are 15, 50, 100 more than I could say times stronger then me. Sicker & in more pain then me, they praise Jesus louder than I ever have.

I am so blessed. I thank God & pray He allows me to see the right perspective.

Man. So today I am pretty bored (no homework!) so I decided to go on the 58ten website & watch their video. This group is in charge of the childrens home I went to this summer.

I watched this video. Usually a bunch of African children is…a bunch of African children. But as I watched this video, I saw these beautiful children. Instead of nameless faces I saw Naomi & Faith & Moses. As Mommy Jeina & Mommy Josephine shared about these kids, my heart broke. I sat here & wished I could just pick these beautiful kids up & hold them. I miss these kids so much!

Side note: I got two letters from some of the girls the other day. Oh man. <3

Anyway, my heart is breaking. Again I wonder why I’m here at college. I so so wish I could be back in Mulango. I wish I could be trail-blazing somewhere new & bush-whacking my way to bring a brighter future to some children overseas instead of through the Canadian bluffs. 

But, I know God has a plan. :) 

Freaking out here, just a tad. :) 

I saw the picture of our dorm rooms & have been talking to my roommate…this is getting real! I’m getting up tomorrow morning & leaving for Wisconsin.

As my best friend left my house I sat down & realized…I’m not going to see this kid for quite some time. As I pack my bags I think…if I forget something I won’t be able to go grab it for a good couple of months. As I was at our friends house & their girls blockaded the door…I realized I won’t see these precious faces until December. There’s an even longer list of these things…but no need for that. :)

I was asked today what my expectations are for this year. Good question? I don’t even know! Camping & reading the Bible?? Making new friends? I don’t really know except I want to discover God in a new way & learn lots of things…& see how pretty the stars are in this wilderness place!

It’s just crazy to think I’m leaving & things may never be the same! Not to be over-dramatic or anything…but I really am. :)